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M A S T E R   T R A C K   L I S T I N G : a. and maybe someday you'll find what you're looking for c l i q u e ? b. let’s drive to the beach when the hand moves midnight 1. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi. Radiohead 2. Breathing Water. FAKE? 3. Ocean Breathes Salty. Modest Mouse 4. Breakwater. Bobby & Blumm BONUS: Where is My Mind?. Pixies c. somehow the stars all melt into sky bruises black and blue 1. GLASS TO THE ARSONanberlin 2. ROSESmeg & dia 3. KREMLIN DUSKutada hikaru d. and it just doesn't seem real that you're still standing there smiling at me 1. clark gable by the postal service 2. monday by fair 3. her velvet voice by the juliana theory e. yet I blink and you cry and I’m still weary from wondering why 1. take me somewhere nice - Mogwai 2. the district sleeps alone tonight - The Postal Service 3. asleep - The Smiths 4. destroy the map - 36 Crazyfists 5. a decade under the influence - Taking Back Sunday f. we'll walk until the horizon disappears into vertical vertigo 999. Autobahn, anberlin 101. Brand New Colony, the postal service * apology - I wonder why I cannot hide myself as well as you can, a faint shadow of light embedded in the air 000. BONUS: 4:28 A.M. - Fields of Aplomb

 

I have attempted to shorten the lyrics (to only the lines I love the most) but. Have failed. (The "short" part, anyway.) Anyway, this fails to serve as companion to the sad excuse for a "story" by now (and the first mix rarely adhered, either). It's just nice music at this point, that all seem to liken to a common significance .. or something like that. (Basically, I like titles, and I like tying things together. Tying titles together?)

I am in love with so much Postal Service these days (and yes, it's a renewal of a very already long-winded love) so I'm spreading it across mixes.

 

* let’s drive to the beach when the hand moves midnight

the last track sounds so out of place, but so kill me for liking themes (as fish break the waters, breathing in the ocean.) but it's actually a nice finale, don't you think? i love bobby baby's voice, she reminds me of a german horan (clazziquai).

 

1. Weird Fishes/Arpeggi. Radiohead

In the deepest ocean
The bottom of the sea
Your eyes
They turn me
Why should I stay here?
Why should I stay?

I'd be crazy not to follow
Follow where you lead
Your eyes
They turn me

Turn me on to phantoms
I follow to the edge of the earth
And fall off
Everybody leaves
If they get the chance
And this is my chance

I get eaten by the worms
Weird fishes
Get picked over by the worms
Weird fishes, weird fishes, weird fishes

I'll hit the bottom
Hit the bottom and escape
Escape


2. Breathing Water. FAKE?

I'm so lonely I could die
Stab in antennas in my mind
Life it cuts me like a knife
Strange I never know just why

I'm so lonely I could fly
I can't decide if I'm over or out

Put the days that I see myself inside me
In my open hand
Well nevermind, it's all behind me
It's always there, somewhere behind me
Keep breathing over and over and over again...


3. Ocean Breathes Salty. Modest Mouse

Your body may be gone, I'm gonna carry you in.
In my head, in my heart, in my soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both live again.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. Don't think so.

The ocean breathes salty, won't you carry it in?
In your head, in your mouth, in your soul.
And maybe we'll get lucky and we'll both grow old.
Well I don't know. I don't know. I don't know. I hope so.

Well that is that and this is this.
You tell me what you want and I'll tell you what you get.
You get away from me. You get away from me.
Collected my belongings and I left the jail.
Well thanks for the time, I needed to think a spell.
I had to think awhile. I had to think awhile.

Well that is that and this is this.
Will you tell me what you saw and I'll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky.
You missed when time and life shook hands and said goodbye.
When the earth folded on itself.
And said "Good luck, for your sake I hope heaven and hell
are really there, but I wouldn't hold my breath."
You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death? You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste death?

The ocean breathes salty, won't you carry it in?
In your head, in your mouth, in your soul.
The more we move ahead the more we're stuck in rewind.
Well I don't mind. I don't mind. How the hell could I mind?

Well that is that and this is this.
Will you tell me what you saw and I'll tell you what you missed,
when the ocean met the sky.

You wasted life, why wouldn't you waste the afterlife? 


4. Breakwater. Bobby & Blumm

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> > bonus: Where is My Mind?. Pixies

Where is my mind

Way out in the water
See it swimmin'?

I was swimmin' in the Caribbean
Animals were hiding behind the rocks
Except the little fish
But they told me, he swears
Tryin' to talk to me, coy koi.

Where is my mind

Way out in the water
See it swimmin'?...



* somehow the stars all melt into sky bruises black and blue


1. GLASS TO THE ARSONanberlin

tonight my heart is cold
lost in your lies, shallow replies

and gravity prevails this time it's over
and you think you're the one

and innocence derailed
savage the poison
unhurried compass east

calm me with your lies your simple tragedy
it's all I wish to hear tonight
and you're all I wish to be
and this is how we all fall

tonight my heart is cold
lost in your lies, shallow replies
tonight I'll just let go
lost in your eyes, transparent cries

and we are, we are, we are the arsons
who start all of your fires

and we are the arsons
who start all of your fires, burning
burning your city down

tonight my heart is cold
lost in your lies, shallow replies
tonight I'll just let go
lost in your eyes, transparent cries
tonight my heart is cold
lost in your lies, shallow replies
tonight I'll just let go
lost in your eyes, transparent cries


2. ROSESmeg & dia

turn around there's those eyes again
turn around fake indifference and I
watch their cold, dark silhouettes disappear.
a hundred bodies fill this room.
and all their faces overdone.
pain is foreign, foreign to us.

I don't even know you.
You won't even know I'm gone.
Was it something I did wrong?

Roses, roses cold.
Roses, roses sold out.

turn around reds and whites again.
I'd sell my kicks for one more low tar.
fevers hand in hand with shoelace bracelets.
why are some girls so naive?
he didn't unbutton your blouse to see.
a better view of your heart.
oh yeah, can't blame you for trying
sing it soft
make it slow
apples parachute the boys back down
fill it up
overflow
a new, improved modern way to feel

I don't even know you.
You won't even know I'm gone.
Was it something I did wrong?


3. KREMLIN DUSKutada hikaru

All along I was searching for my Lenore
In the words of Mr. Edgar Allan Poe
Now I'm sober and "Nevermore"
Will the Raven come to bother me at home

Calling you, calling you home
You... calling you, calling you home

By the door you said you had to go
Couldn't help me anymore
This I saw coming, long before
So I kept on staring out the window

Calling you, calling you home
You... calling you, calling you home

I am a natural entertainer, aren't we all
Holding pieces of dying ember
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
Who can I call

Home... calling you, calling you

I run a secret propaganda
Aren't we all hiding pieces of broken anger
I'm just trying to remember who I can call
Can I call

Born in a war of opposite attraction
It isn't, or is it a natural conception
Torn by the arms in opposite direction
It isn't or is it a Modernist reaction

Do you like this
Is it always the same
Will come back again
Do you like this
Do you like this

Is it like this
Is it always the same
If you change your phone number, will you tell me

Is it like this
Is it always the same
When a heartache begins, is it like this

If you like this
Will you remember my name
Will you play it again, if you like this



* and it just doesn't seem real that you're still standing there smiling at me


1. clark gable by the postal service

I was waiting for a cross-town train in the London underground when it struck me
That I've been waiting since birth to find a love that would look and sound like a movie
so I changed my plans and rented a camera and a van and then I called you
"I need you to pretend that we are in love again" and you agreed to

I greased the lens and framed the shot using a friend as my stand-in
the script it called for rain but it was clear that day so we faked it
the marker snapped and I yelled "quiet on the set" and then called "action!"
and I kissed you in a style that Clark Gable would have admired (I thought it classic)

I want so badly to believe that "there is truth, that love is real"
And I want life in every word to the extent that it's absurd

I know you're wise beyond your years, but do you ever get the fear
that your perfect verse is just a lie you tell yourself to help you get by?


2. monday by fair

in the sweet glow of the light, you revive my folly
when you shout like nothing dies, I can see you’re sorry

when your sad mouth figures out like a child in mourning
and you laugh like water drowns 'cause I hear it coming

with a hold on paradise
and a knack to follow
you control your compromise
with your white washed sorrow
when your hope crawls underneath
what you’re dreaming for me
you're as blind as I can see
when you hear it coming

when you laugh you give it away
sinking slow as quick sand
you touch my hand
you say you’re never afraid
push me off the deep end

and when you lie
your lips curl like a wave of separation
and when you laugh
you know you give it away
you know you give it away
you know you give it away


3. her velvet voice by the juliana theory

in the cracking cold your velvet voice ventures from your lips
stiffly walking words, they seem to hang here
you place each phrase like puzzle pieces:
planned, precise, and perfect
you play me like a piano or a pastime.

I'm hanging like a spider in suspended time and space
your thoughts are all I need to keep me breathing
dig your feet in deeper plant your heels into the ground
if you could grow roots down you'd be a tree now.

frozen fingers fold inside the pocket of my jeans
but tighter is the grip you have upon me
clasping, clenching, clinging on: I'm tailor made to act upon this
urge to keep you for myself forever.

the man you fell for fell apart.
he let his demons out of the dark.
the dark.

I could be your voice of reason. You can be impossible.

but sunshine you shone. Sunshine you've grown.
I'm just a shadow when you're not here to shine.
sunshine you shone. Sunshine you've grown.
I'm just a shadow when you're not here to shine.
here to shine.

let me hear your voice, my one and only.
let me see your face. Our love: like breathing.
carry me away. I'm yours completely.
hide me in your arms. I don't deserve it.

(let me hear your voice.
let me see your face.
carry me away. I'm yours completely.
carry me away, carry me away...
let me hear your voice...)



* yet I blink and you cry and I’m still weary from wondering why


1. take me somewhere nice - Mogwai

Ghosts in the photograph
never lied to me.

I'd be all of that
I'd be all of that

A false memory
would be everything.
A denial my eliminent.

What would you do if you saw spaceships over Glasgow?
Would you fear them?

Every aircraft,
every camera,
is a wish that
wasn't granted.

What was that for?
What was that for?

Try to be bad.
Try to be bad


2. the district sleeps alone tonight - The Postal Service

Smeared black ink... your palms are sweaty
And I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath
Where I am
Where I am

I'll wear my badge... a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest
That tells your new friends I am a visitor here...
I am not permanent
And the only thing keeping me dry is
Where I am
Where I am
Where I am

D.C. sleeps alone tonight

You seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
A stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
And I am finally seing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving

The district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn out their lights
And send the autos swerving into the loneliest evening
And I am finally seeing
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving
Why I was the one worth leaving


3. asleep - The Smiths

Sing me to sleep, sing me to sleep
I'm tired and I
I want to go to bed

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
And then leave me alone
Don't try to wake me in the morning
'Cause I will be gone
Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I will feel so glad to go

Sing me to sleep
Sing me to sleep
I don't want to wake up
On my own anymore

Don't feel bad for me
I want you to know
Deep in the cell of my heart
I really want to go

There is another world
There is a better world
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well, there must be
Well ...

Bye bye
Bye bye
Bye ...


4. destroy the map - 36 Crazyfists

You couldn't hold your mouth to stop the sound,
with all these riches on the tip of your tongue,
and I was trying to dampen it all out.

You were talking louder than I should hear,
producing nothing but all these mirrors,
and I was trying to play it all down.

Sad song, so wrong,
your body shakes for so long,
towing me down.
Let's just stay late,
a safe bet for a second place.
This time, my time, we have, we'll last.

With eyes of blood,
these kisses won't rust.
Where the baptized drowned,
we used to breathe. 

That evil, a brutal sickness brings,
at times you can't let go
it chases you from everything.
To settle for almost anything,
it's times like these
when you should only choose just not to speak.

Underneath the red
come running back to me,
come running!

And the clouds don't break when the sun is on empty


5. a decade under the influence - Taking Back Sunday

Well, sad, small, sweet, so delicate
It used to be this dying breed...
You kept still until the long drive home
And slept safe and close to the window
Well, I've got a bad feeling about this
I've got a bad feeling about...

Well sad, small, sure and porcelain
You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck
Well I've got a bad feeling about this (when it comes to this)
I've got a bad feeling about this

Who's to say you have to go? (I could go all night)
Well say you have to go (I could go all...)
To hell with you and all your friends
To hell with you and all your friends, it's on

Well, I got a bad feeling about this (what is this for?)
I got a bad feeling about...

Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Anyone (anyone) will do tonight
Close your eyes, just settle, settle (it's on...)
Close your eyes, just settle, settle (it's on...)

Well I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (in you...).
I'm coming over but it never was enough
I thought it through and my worst brings out the best in you
I got a bad feeling about this,
I got a bad feeling about this (I am you)

I got a bad feeling about this (I am...)
I got it bad (you)
I got it bad, I got it bad, I got it bad, I got it bad
I got it bad



* we'll walk until the horizon disappears into vertical vertigo

the only songs that fit. ♥

999. Autobahn, anberlin

And we're driving just as fast as we can
And we're racing to outrun the wind
It's just me and you and you and me
So wild and so young, bright-eyed and free

And we're trying to get out of here
As a small town romance draws ever near
And I swear we're in the movie's
The highlight comes when you kiss me

And the stereo sings our song
And we don't hesitate to sing along

Drive to dream to live we could see the world tonight hear the hope tomorrow we could see the world

And we're miles from the middle of nowhere
And neither of us seems to care
And that's why I love you so-o-o
Shut your mouth girl no one has to know
And times seems to drip like Dali
And neither of us has a place to be
So once and forever tell me all, tell me all of your dreams

And we're driving just as fast as we can
And we're racing to outrun the wind
And the stereo sings our song
We don't hesitate to sing along

Drive to dream to live we could see the world tonight hear the hope tomorrow we could see the world


101. Brand New Colony, the postal service

I'll be the grapes fermented
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as you're lying there drifting off to sleep
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zipped straight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics in this town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will hear the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change...



apology - I wonder why I cannot hide myself as well as you can, a faint shadow of light embedded in the air

000. BONUS: 4:28 A.M. - Fields of Aplomb